HONEST

(album: FIRST DEGREE - 2021)

BNYX

I know myself and this ain't me (Yeah, yeah)
Post myself on the internet but this ain't me, yeah
I keep it cool and show respect, but this ain't me (Yeah)
I pour my heart out to the mic, ain't tryna' tweet (Ain't tryna' tweet)
I don't need no hook 'cause I know the fish ain't gon' see it (Yeah)
'Bout to write a book and I'm the only one that's gon' read it
(Yeah, yeah)
My point being, you ain't gotta feel it, I feel it (Yeah-yeah, ooh)
This shit too lame, but I am the fool for playing this game
Only got myself to blame
I wish these niggas never knew my name
I wish I never spat no rap
But thank God, 'cause it took me out the trap
All that talk, take me out the chat
Please, please, God, take me out the cap (Chyeah)
You can ask my hood, I was a style icon before I rapped (Yeah)
I get love in real life, I don't need double taps (I don't need)
Some of my fans young as fourteen, it's mad (It's mad)
'Cause I was fourteen when I got stabbed
By fifteen, I seen the racks (Yeah)
By sixteen, I seen a strap (Yeah)
'Bout seventeen, whipping and driving (Hey)
I was eighteen, fucking two baddies (Trust)
At nineteen, I nearly got seven years for heroin inside that baggie (True stories)
I'm twenty-five and I got so many problems that still ain't vanish
I'm certified, you can ask my ex-chick or your favourite rapper (Huh?)
It hurts that I gotta chain myself, I feel like an actor
(Feel like an actor)
'Cause when I was being myself, they call me a character
(I'm a character, yeah)
Still, I back up, my life too real, I can't even put all the facts up
(Chyeah)
I was so broke, yeah, I was down
Just last week, I spent a hundred thou' (Spent a thou')
This LIFE IN HELL for real, it ain't just the album (Hey, yeah)
My head above water, but I can't wait to drown
(I can't wait to drown)
I can get a nigga wacked, so I ain't gon' sweat it (I ain't gon' sweat it)
When I was depressed I still made sure my niggas go and get it (Chyeah)
When I was depressed, I sat there, I had to be my own medic
(Nah, nah)
I was a real pill popper, I mixed the Perc with the X, yeah (With the X)

I feel like I've been through every stage, fam
I feel like I've been through a lot of shit (Ooh-ooh, oh-woah)
But people didn't see so they
They can't necessarily understand how I got here
(Know what I'm sayin?)
Or how I got to this style or how I got to this
To this point in my life, you know what I'm sayin'?
I really did this shit, I really been everywhere, I really (Yeah)
I'm a young OG in that sense, know what I'm sayin'? (Yeah-yeah, Chyeah)

I used to call up a baddie and drop off the dough (Trust)
She know she riding, she comes and she go (Uh-huh)
Way before rap, my lines were blown
Everybody quiet when I'm on the phone (Phew)
Seen niggas die, the roads are cold (Yeah, when I'm down)
Seen niggas die, the roads are cold (Ooh, yeah)
That's why I ain't afraid to pack up and go (Yeah-yeah)
They love you more when you ain't with 'em no more (True stories)
I left so many codes in Friend or Foux (Oh, woah)
When I'm dead, I'm gone, that's when you know (Yeah-yeah)

Yeah (Crazy), yeah, hey, hey, yeah, yeah
Just gotta tell them, tell them how I feel sometimes
Yeah, hey, hey, yeah
Na-na-na, yeah, hey, hey, yeah, uh-huh-huh (Hey)