Whipits

(album: Dead Kid - 2014)

Suddenly I was told to breathe

So wide-eyed, gasping, I took my first breath
Rising up from nothing aiming to be fabulous nonetheless
This isn't just an uneducated guess
I'm a weird motherfucker, can't you tell I'm not like the rest?
Whispers in these ears keep telling me I'm blessed
Keep this shit off and you'll never be stressed
Knew that was a lie but I said "Fuck it, what's next?"
Gotta cope with this deep breath until I float
Sense of clarity always brings me to this point of hope

My father asked me if I was a faggot, nope
I like licking pussy and sucking titties, though
Huff a sugary taste laced with Vicodin and tall boys
Join if you want, like always it's your choice
I'm a sucker for a good connection
I've got good detection
Possibly scared of my own reflection
Ibuprofen, lack of serotonin
All playing roles in the life I'm blowing
You see my colors showing?

Breathe in, breathe out
I think this time I loathed is finally fucking running out
Breathe in, breathe out
My lungs are begging for a hit and I can't let em down
Drifting slowly losing sense of time
A dance with death is fucking nothing when you've felt this high
A drive down 75, never felt so alive
Huffing nitrous 'til our brains are fucking paralyzed

Gimme a double, I'm asking for trouble, my lips are turning blue
And I'm staring through a tunnel and so subtly, I leave this room
In which I grew into a cold sorry son-of-a-bitch, it was a mix of
Lack of concentration, motivation, I've come to the realization
I will never change, it's always one more, one more
Outta metaphors to explain the shame I felt when I was dirt poor

If only when I came to I could put these thoughts to words
I'd probably terrify you, I'd sound so absurd
An animal in the cage, I'm going straight berserk
I'd bang head on the bars but it only leads to a soul that hurts
So I sit back and watch life pass me by
Stuck with this feeling that my life is just a lie
Wide-eyed, I realize with that last breath I've never felt
So alive, but I'm dead inside

Breathe in, breathe out
I think this time I loathed is finally fucking running out
Breathe in, breathe out
My lungs are begging for a hit and I can't let em down
Drifting slowly losing sense of time
A dance with death is fucking nothing when you've felt this high
A drive down 75, never felt so alive
Huffing nitrous 'til our brains are fucking paralyzed