Letter To The Family

(album: Rain In England - 2010)

This is a letter to my family I wanna share with y'all
I feel this is very important
Sometimes I lose track of my own life
I get too deep into music
Sometimes I even love music more than myself, my own body
That's when things become unhealthy

This is a letter to my family
I swear I love y'all
My communication lack
I take slack and bash myself
For being stuck in the trap
A self induced coma that I put myself through
Expect everyone to know
When you don't speak, it's hard to grow
I know I'm young, but I think I'm grown
Even though I'm grown, I understand that you're close to home
And all I gotta do is pick up the phone
Making a call to show we both on the same page, sailing on the same boat
We bled so it's no animosity, only hope
To see us in paradise, that's my biggest dream
Off all our hard work put together 'cause we a team
This is my family

Family I really love you
I don't know what to say about my problems
I sometimes get stuck in my own life
And put music before anything
Even myself
I hope that's not the death of me

Family, you be there even with no money
I know we all judge
My job forces me to feel like I'm Superman
I have to save the day, but I need to save myself
Love my uncles and my aunts, my grandmother
Father, cousins, grandfather, distant relatives
Brothers and sisters, half of me is you
I'm sorry for my neglecting
My father neglected
He tried to show love, I couldn't accept it
I don't know what a man is
I look in the mirror, a reflection of a puzzle
Will I be puzzled by the final pieces?
All I know is my family got my back
Watch me grow before I knew how old
This addiction... I don't wanna say that...
This is a dedication song to you, family
Without your love, none above
Sad that the drugs tear things apart
Now I gotta be a man and start my life again
Not over, re-blossom from the bottom
Make it to the sun
I love you
Family, we are one

I understand that
I don't know how to be a man
I understand that
I need to pick up the phone
It hurts me more than anybody
It hurts me to be alone
Knowing that I don't have to be
Knowing that I have people who love me
And that would drop anything for me
My family has always been like that
And I love you guys
I continuously beat myself up

Help me with love, help me with strength
Help me with motivation, help me with courage
This is to my family, we are all one unit
I made this song for you to know that
You're one of the most important things in my life
If not, the most important
I had to express it over music
This is the only way that this message will last forever
Family, we are one