Degrade

(album: Over It - 2021)

Ayo, run that back one more time, alright?
Yeah

Now I'm not doing very well
I'm not feeling like myself
Haven't slept for several days
Feel it wearing on my health
Now I'm living in a haze
With my shelf life expired
Made a few attempts
But it seems I'm a survivor
Had my feet to the fire
For my entire existence
Life is a prison
Unless you live with no limit
With God as my witness
I know I'm going to hell
So the day I die you'll find
That I'm the flyest in the commonwealth
The fires that I ever felt
Got my lyrics tatted
Give a fuck about a Gucci belt
This shit's automatic
Been a while since I hurt myself
I'm proud to say I turned around
A life that was quickly going south, ay
Now I just sit around and watch
The world around me degrade
As I prepare to be impaired
For all the rest of my days
Now I'm sick of running scared
With my fears, I'm face-to-face
'Cause I wanna get better
But I'm set in my ways, yeah

Because lately
I don't care if you hate me
I'm just thinking that maybe
You miss me around
I can't wait to be alright
I can't wait to live my life
I don't really need
Another chance to let you down
Down, down

Now I been going through a phase
On a search for better days
Pattern flipping to a labyrinth
This life is such a maze
It's amazing that I got
Nearly as far as I did
That I avoided Jackson State
Or getting stuck with a kid
It's my flock, I ain't about to
Let no wolves in my pen
Man, I been there and done that
Y'all quick to forget
Where I'm at and where I've been
And what I've done in the booth
Now I feel like Paul Pierce
I'm the motherfucking truth
Ain't no jealousy inside of me
I'm proud of my friends
I'ma live the life I want
Until the day that it ends
Tends to be the people leaving
Maybe that's for the best
If you're not coming on the ride
Then we're not sharing success
I'm not sharing my press
In my prime, it's the pinnacle
Time flying by, still cynical
It's cyclical, the way that I been feeling
So don't ask where my head is
I been saying for a minute
I've been blessed with a death wish

Because lately
I don't care if you hate me
I'm just thinking that maybe
You miss me around
I can't wait to be alright
I can't wait to live my life
I don't really need
Another chance to let you down
Down, down