Oct. 17th 2014

(album: Lost Years - 2023)

Today I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, it's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly however you like
However you like

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle
Perks in my bloodstream I just took a handful
Don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table
Fall on my face call your phone while I'm able
Don't remember how I got here
Doesn't matter how I got here
Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again yeah it's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest but she don't understand what I mean by depressed and
I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you I loved you if you loved me too but
I'm on the edge now I know it's too late
I already know I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
I'm all out of time, It's too late to try
So baby kill me slowly

I don't know who to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve, or am I swerving on the people that I love cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing with a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch
And I feel like such a bitch, now my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say fuck it I'm done, And I try to get away
But I don't get very far, And there's nowhere to stay
Now I'm writing these bars, Cause I've got so much to say
So my words will live on, Even When I fade away

I can't wait to die nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So can you please tell me why?