I Hate This

(album: Carving Canyons - 2022)

You took me for a swim
I'd never gotten in before
I was too scared to do it alone

And I watched you begin
Your new life in Virginia
I wanted to help you make it home

Hard times
Show who you really are
Spotlight on the deepest dark

I wish it could've ended better
I didn't get to look in your eyes
I thought we made a life together
I think I deserved a kinder goodbye
More private, more patient, more sacred
God, I hate this

And when we lost Ned
My belief in good was shattered
You knew how to talk me off of the edge

And when the world stopped
I went to reach for you
But you were reaching out for somebody else

Hard times
Show who you really are
Spotlight on the deepest flaws

I wish it could've ended better
I didn't get to look in your eyes
I thought we made a life together
I think I deserved a kinder goodbye
More private, more patient, more gracious

God, I hate this
I don't get to talk to you no more
I hate it
You're replaced by a pain I can't ignore

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it

I wish it could've ended better
I didn't get to look in your eyes
I thought we'd make a life together
I think we deserved a kinder goodbye
More private, more patient, more sacred
Oh God, I hate this
God, I hate this
Oh God, I hate this