I'll Never Be Loved

(album: Never Slept Better - 2022)

Baby it's the last time I promise
I know I promised last time but now I'm being honest
You the one that said that the past was behind us
But how we gonna move forward if we keep dragging it around
With a slight line
And you've heard this all before, I know I know
But I'm sick and tired of sleeping on the floor, it's cold
I'm begging you for one more chance, sweetheart
I'm done with my chemical romance

And it's been eight weeks
I'm clean, I'm sober
All the lying and cheating it's done, it's over
And all I wanted was your warm embrace but all I keep getting is cold shoulders
And I don't blame you
Shit, I'd do the same too
If I was in your shoes and had to deal with what you're going through
And all your friends tried to warn you not to take a chance with me
You wanted Johnny and June
I gave you that Sid and Nancy
I'm sorry

I will see you in the morning
If you promise that you'd hold me
I won't go down
I won't go down
I won't go down like that

If I have to keep the light on
Just to make it through the night
I won't go down
I won't go down
I won't go down like that

I fear I'll never be loved
I fear I'll never be loved
I fear I'll never be loved
I feel, I feel love

And you were there for me at my darkest
Held my hand when I was walking blind through the darkness
Kick it cold turkey never once left my apartment
Girl you hold me down I can't imagine life without you around

And now the camel's back as been broken
With the same straw that I used to blow dope with
Depressed my head's a mess and I don't think that I can cope with
The fact that you're leaving
Sex drugs and rock-and-roll this shit is so deceiving

It's all fun and games at first until somebody you love gets hurt
And that's when it hurts
And that's when you call
When I was two seconds away from ending it all
Three and a half pints down on a tour bus in Norway
In the back lounge staring at heaven's doorway
Then I got a phone call and all I saw was your face
No one on this earth can ever ever take your place
I love you

I will see you in the morning
If you promise that you'd hold me
I won't go down
I won't go down
I won't go down like that

If I have to keep the light on
Just to make it through the night
I won't go down
I won't go down
I won't go down like that

I fear I'll never be loved
I fear I'll never be loved
I fear I'll never be loved
I feel, I feel love

And here I go again trying to fix it with a song
I thought I had my shit together I was obviously wrong
The last time you left me you were right I shoulda known
When I was sitting in that Brooklyn basement cold and all alone

And I cried until my tear ducts dried up, no really
Swimming laps in an Olympic-sized pool of self-pity
And I probably hold the record in the Guinness book for most bridges burned
That this gasoline smell's making me dizzy

But on a lighter note
Put this in the liner notes
I know you had enough and there's absolutely no sign of hope
Or any kind of future between you and I
If I should die tomorrow just know this wasn't a lie
Cross my heart and hope to live for a few more
The worst part is you were who I used to live for
And now I'm living for me
Wherever you're at I just hope you're happy
Thanks for listening