Forever Alone

(album: Apply Pressure - 2020)

I've been tryna drown out all these voices
But lately they don't got nowhere to go
I guess I'm a product of bad choices
But lately I don't want all that to show

I was gone for a minute, but I'm back now
Take a blunt to the face then I pass out
I'mma keep it lowkey in the background
Quick flex, got a check then I cash out
I'm hearing voices, these voices won't ever shut up
I can't ignore 'em, I'm pouring shots till the sun up
I thought I told you I've mostly been just a fuck up
Don't let no snakes in my circle, I never trust 'em
Working hard on my self improvement
Swear to God I'll invent the blueprint
I told 'em all I'm the next to do this
I've been on the winning team and the rest are stupid
Sometimes I get down on myself
Because I work too hard to fuck with anybody else
This rap shit is a full time job and I work round the clock
I ain't took nights off, I'm the bad guy
Notice how the good guys lost
Wordsmith for the verses, the hooks don't stop
Did dirt since birth when I pushed too hard
To let any of you motherfuckers take my spot, it's Merk

I've been tryna drown out all these voices
But lately they don't got nowhere to go
I guess I'm a product of bad choices
But lately I don't want all that to show
I'm just tryna live in the moment
But someday's life can seem out of control
It feels like I'm drowning in the ocean
I guess I'll always be forever alone

[Evil Ebenezer:]
Truth is I got a slight disorder
Really tryna get my life in order
Gotta do it for wife and daughter
I keep working at night, I'm a loner
Real talk, I've been praying lots
Stuck in my head with these crazy thoughts
Tryna figure out when the pain will stop
I don't give a fuck if they hate or not
Hard to deal with the phony friends
No idea where this road will end
Fucked up mind is so intense
I drink and I smoke because I codepend
Don't tell me how I gotta gain success
Don't you know life's a game of chess?
Y'all are wasting breath, time to fake your death
Watch out, the stress might break your neck
Days get harder and nights get darker
Still gotta conquer and fight my problems
I'm digging deep man, I gotta be honest
I'm feeling exhausted, had it and lost it
Me and Merk, we came up together
We put in work, now they fucking fed up
We run this shit man, ain't no better
This road is long, it don't last forever

I know I made some bad calls lately
But I won't let the pressure break me
Talking to to myself like I'm crazy
No matter where I'm going I'm forever alone

I've been tryna drown out all these voices
But lately they don't got nowhere to go
I guess I'm a product of bad choices
But lately I don't want all that to show
I'm just tryna live in the moment
But someday's life can seem out of control
It feels like I'm drowning in the ocean
I guess I'll always be forever alone

Don't you know, don't you know...
I'm forever alone...