Pat Stay Forever

It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again
It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again

I don't even know how to say this
I hate this so much, I don't really wanna face it
It's fucked up how your last name stay
But you're gone, please Pat, what can I do to change this?
Please tell me that it's all a bad dream
And I'll wake up soon and it's not how this seems
If God's real, then I'll fall on my knees
And I'll pray to 'em Pat, just call me back please
The day it happened you asked me to go live
Nobody told me that a few hours after that you'd die
I tried watching your battles the past time
But I can't 'cause as soon as I laugh I just cry
I remember sending raps to you back in '09
And you'd always hit me back 'cause Pat was that guy
I know everyone'll take care of Calvin, he'll be fine
But soon he'll hit an age where he's bound to ask why
And it hurts 'cause nobody's got a answer
Fuck rap 'cause Pat was a dad first
I miss the jokes, the debates, and the banter
A real dude, way more than just a rapper
Sucker free, you were actually a boss
I'm in awe, how the fuck did this happen to you dog?
Everybody's click baiting every caption, every blog
I guess it's the first battle that you lost
It's been taking me everything I have
Not to have a breakdown while this pen is in my head
The dopest rapper on the planet and an even better man
'Cause no matter what happens, there won't be another Pat, that's real

It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again
It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again

You really paved the way and set the trend
Please save some space for me my friend
I just saw a tweet today from Eminem
Which is dope but why did he wait till you were dead?
This wasn't 'cause of his diss track to Game
And I hate seeing comments who think that's the blame
It's a shame they don't look at the impact you made
For the sake of his family, please give that a break
I could say how I feel but it's pointless
I'm in our DMs listening to voice clips you sent me
I'm empty inside when I record this
The thought of it is torture, I never would absorb this
You made a post about how we treat our loved ones
Like if we knew that everybody's day were numbered
Did you know that this would happen? I gotta wonder
'Cause three days later we all lost our brother
I love you Pat, I considered you a mentor
And a big brother, I just wish I coulda said more
A legend with a legacy, I promise you you left yours
So what is life and why did they have to end yours?
I know you're saying, "Look, he's sad right now"
I try to laugh but I can't right now
'Cause I just wanna call Pat right now
And I know your kids really need a dad right now
And even though I can't grasp that you're gone
All I think about is how you're in heaven besides your mom
"Aw cute, Merk wrote me a song"
Go ahead and call me a pussy, you're not wrong, I miss you

It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again
It's taken everything I have
To try and ease the pain
I'm giving everything I can
So I can live again

I also think like, you know, people have to go through things too
Like for example, no one would ever sit there and talk about my mom if they lost theirs
Some people have to hit a rock bottom or like, hit a certain whatever to, to learn
You know what I mean?
Just like your face, you know, you feel like that benefited you
I'm not saying my mom's whatever benefited me but I became like, softer because of it, more sensitive
Of course, that shit touched me, you know what I mean?
So if that did that for me, I can only imagine what it did for the fucking thousands
Who knows how many other people out there are watching
Thank you man, I appreciate that very much man
Hey man I'm gonna let you go man, Merk
Thank you so much for the time, I appreciate you very much man
Much love
Peace brother, love you
I love you too man
Ah, I cut him off when he was saying I love you, that's so rude
Love you too brother, much love