The Struggle

I've always been open about it but man
If it just reaches one or two people, you know?
And they understand that it's rough
We deal with it how we deal with it
I'm thinking 'bout all y'all that suffers with this bull shit
'Cause I'm

I'm blacking out again but I ain't even drinking
I'm sailing on the ocean and my ship it started sinking
The storm is coming quickly and the rain it is a bringing
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinking
I'm a lost soul in a fish bowl
Looking at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturing my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin's I don't even feel the wind blow

I'm sick and tired, slip quick and lit the fire
Do not admire my head-sick, I'm uninspired
The way I'm wired leaves not much to be desired
And now they tell me I'm just crying to the choir
I speak my piece in peace then I repent
I'm one penny short so I can't give my two cents
The world's in my hands but it really makes no sense
Staring in the mirror, man I wonder where it all went
The harder I try dog, the harder it gets
The further I slide y'all, the tougher I grit
It's the father inside me that I'm tustling with
And the husband inside that I've been juggling with
Then them drunkardly lies that I'm struggling with
Now I'm hiding my pride like I'm smuggling it
Yeah, I wanted to die, man I wanted to quit
But there is no good-bye 'til I clean up my shit

I'm blacking out again but I ain't even drinking
I'm sailing on the ocean and my ship it started sinking
The storm is coming quickly and the rain it is a bringing
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinking
I'm a lost soul in a fish bowl
Looking at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturing my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin's I don't even feel the wind blow

I wake up every night from the same damn dream
I remember being members on the same damn team
I remember being younger when the world stood still
I remember last December when they gave me new pills
The doctor said it's normal and the only way to heal
The masses think it's funny but those asses never feel it
When the pounding in your chest has barely even been addressed
Until they hit you with a label and they tell you you're depressed
They throw a couple pills and they wish you all the best
The side effects mean nothing bud but go on get your rest
From here on out with out a doubt there will be no regrets
Like an old ass shirt I had to get that off my chest

I'm blacking out again but I ain't even drinking
I'm sailing on the ocean and my ship it started sinking
The storm is coming quickly and the rain it is a bringing
I chose to ride this wave myself, it was what I was thinking
I'm a lost soul in a fish bowl
Looking at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturing my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin's I don't even feel the wind blow

I'm blacking out again but I ain't even drinking
Lost soul in a fish bowl
Looking at my past through the glass of this pain filled window
Picturing my life, but man I got a foggy lens though
I lost so many feelin's I don't even feel the wind blow