On The Borderline

I'm standing on the borderline
What should I bring or leave behind
From who I was
For who I'm gonna be?

I still haven't packed my bags
It's time to go
And I could not care less
So now, I'll miss the train
A walk's still progress made
I just won't arrive quite as fast

I'm thinking way back
To where I'm from
To the things I had
I feel I've forgotten something
I'm sure that it's probably nothing
But that's based more on fear than on fact

I'm standing on the borderline
Between two states I'm petrified
To push ahead or turn back homewardly

I'm a shadow of the past
The shadow of a boy
A boy who couldn't last
They said: "son, don't change"
And I keep hoping they won't see how much I have

A feeling's not a thing you own
But it can be lost
I just want to be home
'Cause home's where the heart is
And when I departed
I might've abandoned them both

I'm standing on the borderline
Between two states I'm petrified
I'm standing on the borderline
What should I bring or leave behind
From who I was
For who I'm gonna be?

I'd like to say:
"I'm the same person from yesterday
Nothing's changed"
'Cause yesterday
I was eager to see what awaited
I wasn't jaded
But no!
I can't go back

Youth seemed sweeter, but if I could return,
All I've learned would be forfeit
I won't go back

I'm followed by the borderline
As I pace forward in my life
Seeking the times
I'll long for once they leave me