Selfish

I just gotta do what's best for me
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
Can't help it
Nowadays I just gotta protect my peace
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
Can't help it

Wake up and I tell myself I'm amazing
Tell myself that I'm worthy
I put too many negative thoughts in my mind
Until I realized they ain't serve me
I deserve everything life has to offer
I gave my fans my life like an author
I gave my wife my life and now I'm off her
I even gave my life to Christ at the altar
Feel like I exhausted myself was often faulted for the God I am to think I almost lost it
But I held it down
No held it up
I can't be failing bruh
To many years I had to hear them people telling us
We wasn't good enough, great enough, wasn't well enough
But I had to ignore that
I can't absorb that
Cause I got purpose

And I gotta do what's best for me
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
I can't help it
Nowadays I just gotta protect my peace
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
I can't help it

I believe I'm overdue
Driver speed and all pursued
Found my demons on the loose
I'mma need a longer noose
Tired of fleeing call a truce
Tired of being off with all my timing
Tired of being low so now I'm climbing
Tired of feeling lost exhausted I am
Burdened by the weight of my objective
Body following my mind directives
Carriage dangle tracking my incentives
Fuck the game and use the contraceptives
Oh did the game fuck me? I don't know
Fame is so lusty, use to have lust coating my soul
Now I feel rusty, born to die slow
Where the time go
Use to enjoy it though
Weightless like I'm buoyant though
Chain swing like the drums hoe
Shameless, you enjoy it though
Painless if I detach
But a pain hits when I relapse
Do I fear that?
Oh no
No I fear me
Sincerely

And I gotta do what's best for me
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
I can't help it
Nowadays I just gotta protect my peace
Am I selfish?
I can't help it
I can't help it

Am I
Selfish?
Am I selfish?
Am I
So selfish?
After bearing
After bearing the cross far too long
Am I
Am I selfish?