Bottom Out

I made it to the top at my rock bottom, bottoming out
Hollow and proud, who the fuck am I? I got em in doubt
Like was I ever really sober when I told you it was over
As I'm loading up the coldest winter boulders in my bowl
It wasn't like me, I was never dripping, I was icy
Made a living on fact and fiction until they hyped me
But I wasn't ready cause it got heavy and heavier fast
Way in the thick of it, talking different and carrying bags
That weren't even mine boom I stepped in it definitely
And it's like immediately it became evident
To me that I'd never know peace or take a breath again
At least not without grief when I wasn't helping men in need
Women wanted to seduce me, but they broke me
I needed love and it made me hate groupies
You ain't ever gonna take from me again
I wrap my heart in black tourmaline and tumble to win mothafucka

I don't know what's wrong with my brain
But I know that I can't ever change if I don't try
Don't know what you want me to say
I'm a stone, lemme stay on my own cause I don't mind
I don't think I need your help
I don't care how hard you try
It's just me, myself and I
Don't try

The only one I trust is my girl
That's my life, you don't wanna fuck with my world
That's my word, lemme spell it out for the class
The only CD that we see is a mountain of cash
It's bigger than music, this is the generational worth
We make the money circulate like a plate at the church
You think it's cake, but this is high stake
This is fuck everybody, out of my face
I am not the same cat that I was back in the day
I had to be saved and it was either that or decay
I picked a path, got my lazy ass outta the way
And took advantage of the automatic fact that I'm great
Cause it's the truth and I never need a verse to manifest
I shadow box so I can reverse the damages
Of my programming, I'm a man first and foremost
And life's short, I ain't got the energy for foes or your goals

I don't know what's wrong with my brain
But I know that I can't ever change if I don't try
Don't know what you want me to say
I'm a stone, lemme stay on my own cause I don't mind
I don't think I need your help
I don't care how hard you try
It's just me, myself and I
Don't try