The Rafters

We all live an untold story that we long to unfold
Look around from the rafters, there's no mistakes at all
We all live an untold story that we wish we could quickly unfold
Looking down from the rafters we only grow even if we fall

Yo, I sit again here with a blank look and I'm gonna get my rap in
It's been a whole minute but I'm back I gotta vent, it's my passion
Took a long hard look at the condition of my life and I just don't like it
Spent a whole damn year and I'm still right here and undecided
OHoOo-oHOO! Still here singing like, OhoO-OoOH Yeah!
Then 3-2-1 then I'm back to the rap like it ain't nobody's business
I'm thinking it's the least I can do while I'm here trying to shake this deadly sickness
Damn it I get so angry inside that I can't contain it and I get mad at the way that I'm feeling and I'm left with no explanation
And I watch myself punch holes in the walls of every one of my relationships and the people who only love me get to bear the brunt of all my frustrations
Oh, what a waste of breath what a waste of a man
I could die right here in the place that I stand and my bones in the wind get erased in the sand what an ever so curious case that I am
Will I leave me a legacy, will I ever turn around or hang my head as the saddest sounds resound singing

We all live an untold story that we long to unfold
Look around from the rafters, there's no mistakes at all
We all live an untold story that we wish we could quickly unfold
Looking down from the rafters we only grow even if we fall

Yo I sit again here thinking back to a time when I use to sing so freely
I came to the mic with nothing but the words on my mind at the time it was easy
They'd roll right off the tongue, and I'd escape in the sound
I'd lose myself in the music 8 Mile shit while the problems drown
But NoOo-HoOo! You feeling what I'm saying now? NoOo-HOOOOhoO!
Now it's all long gone and I wish so bad I could go back
Will it happen again will I get that chance? Oh who knows that
Right now all I know is it's crushing this pressure I'm feeling
And I need this music more than ever to keep it from building
It's an outlet I've neglected to utilize as of lately and as a consequence I've been an grumpy bitch and everybody around me just hates me
Listen
I got these problems I've been stuck in a vicious cycle and lately I've been looking at my life like a sinking ship with no lifeboat
Is it just for a time that I'm meant to be this way?
Or is this a picture of how I'm to forever stay?
Forever stay...

We all live an untold story that we long to unfold
Look around from the rafters, there's no mistakes at all
We all live an untold story that we wish we could quickly unfold
Looking down from the rafters we only grow even if we fall

So I'm back on my bullshit God forgive my unbelief
I pray every night but it feels like nothing but a bunch of redundant speech
Then as soon as I get what I want I'm like ("Thanks, bye!") then then slam the door
Then when shit goes bad I'm right back down on my knees to ask for more
I wish I had the courage the face it it's overwhelming my dreams are all like mirages I chase them they're slowly melting
And I look on helpless as the fire dies
I can only hope that one day I will find that we all...