A 13 Year Old Wrote This About His Depression

Lately, I've been feeling lost
Nowhere I can turn, all the lines are crossed
Everything's collapsing, I'm a pile of dust
I don't know what to do, there's no one I can trust
Not even friends, not even family
I don't have anybody but the creatures in my fantasies
And everything I do is making my life worse
I wanna cut my arms, 'cause happiness should hurt
But if I do that will it release the pain?
'Cause I can't stand the voices, that whisper in my brain
Or maybe I should throw myself in front of a train
So these tears won't fall like the rain

Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions, I'm drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety, I'm drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions, drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning

And I just can't explain, the feeling of the pain
And I can't really tell if it is driving me insane
And if I can't do all that
What's the meaning of life and all the strength, that I gotta gain
I feel lost I am lost
And if that isn't the truth, why am I not finding all the happiness that life should cost
I can't lie, I spent my whole life wishing I could just die
And though I'm alive, I feel like I'm dead
Because of the misery that lives in my head

Because, because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions, drowning in my fears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my tears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
Drowning in emotions, drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here

Ey, uh

Dear Jacob, I appreciate your email
I wanna be careful and consider every detail
It sounds like you're hurt, don't let the pain stop you
You might consider hiring a therapist to talk to
It hurts my heart to hear you say you wanna cut yourself
I promise man, self-mutilation doesn't help
I know it feels like you wish, that you were someone else
But maybe you should take time to embrace and hug yourself
Seriously man, be nice to yourself
You're only 13 friend when I was 13 I remember wishing my life would end
But this ain't the end, you found the beginning
You're not frowning, you're grinning
And you're not drowning, you're swimming
I help you on the boat, as long as you promise me that you'll never lose hope
You're only 13, your whole life's in front of you
Change your attitude, and the world could change because of you

Love you, bro!