What Could Be Worse

'Cause I live in a time bomb
Hear my heart tick tick all night long
Got it all now, I'm still lonely
So lost, nothing could console me
('Cause I live) somewhere deep inside my headspace
(I don't care) probably hold you down like a dead weight
Never be set straight, I'll never be let down
'Cause I don't believe anything that anyone says now

If you don't believe in me
Then why are you still here?
'Cause I heard everything
Could you please stop screaming in my ear?

What could ever be worse than
Thinking you could be something
Then finding out you're wrong?
What could ever be worse than
Never finding your purpose?
Did you know I used to think you were perfect?

I was never gonna be what you wanted
I did everything I could and I still failed regardless
If I'm being heartless, it's only because
I already gave it to you and it wasn't enough
And now I'm fucked up and it's not fair
But nothing matters anyway, why would I care?
I wouldn't have a thing to say if you were right there
How could I explain this year? It was a nightmare

It feels like I'm losing my mind
And it feels like you're wasting my time
I'll probably just lie and say it's alright
You know that I'm lying when I say it's fine

What could ever be worse than
Thinking you could be something
Then finding out you're wrong?
What could ever be worse than
Never finding your purpose?
Did you know I used to think you were perfect?

So stop this fucking car (I need to get out)
We've gone way too far (I need to go now)
'Cause I don't wanna hear you say
Everything will be okay
It won't
You say you care but you don't
Delete the texts that you wrote
'Cause I don't wanna hear you say
Everything will be okay
It won't