So I Lie

(album: Art Dealer Chic 4 - 2021)

Peel me apart, all my layers
All of my fears, all my pride
They say, "Laugh now and cry later"
I can't ignore how I feel inside

Laugh and the world will laugh, too
Cry and the world laughs at you, yeah

So I lie to myself, let's be real
I'm afraid of how I feel, so I lie
To my friends, but they can tell
I'm just a shell of who I am when I lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie

I can barely breathe, treading water
Smile on my face while I'm turning blue
Nobody cares, just work harder
I do what I can to avoid the truth

Laugh and the world will laugh, too
Cry and the world laughs at you, yeah

So I lie to myself, let's be real
'Cause I'm afraid of how I feel, so I lie
To the world, they can see
They can see right through me when I lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie

Until avoided thoughts and doubts mutate to poison
Loaded thoughts explode at ones I love
I wanna face myself, but I keep running
Two shifty patterns, I become when I lie

I lie to myself, let's be real
Just afraid of how I feel, so I lie
To my friends, but you can tell
I'm just a shell of who I am when I lie
To the world, they can see
They can see right through me when I lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie

I'm not complaining, I'm just chilling from not dealing with myself
Messed up villain in my soul, plus I hate to ask for help
I'm not complaining, I'm just chilling from not dealing with myself
Messed up villain in my soul, plus I hate to ask for help (I lie)

Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie