Lose-Lose Days

(album: UnAlive - 2022)

Smiling through the lose-lose days of confusion
You picked me right off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
I'm realizing the answer I've already found

Never-ending days wore on
I was aimless, and yet focused
The oxy-est of morons, I know
Stuck deep composing ghost hits
Fist to the desk, then next the sky
Well aware of the dangerous heights and falls
Back then
Trusted nobody at all

I was all bark no bite
Fighting with God
When it got dark at night
The hours got long
Outta nowhere, now at my side
Standing 5 strong
Back then, we saw nothing wrong

Lost
The dreams we had gathered here to find
Turned into the blind leading the blind
Today it hurt again
We bandaged bruises
Who gives a damn if they're right?

Smiling through
The lose-lose days of confusion
I was well on my way
To diving, all alone, thinking "damn, I've grown up"
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay

Trusting, choosing allies
Wasn't my style
'Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
I'm realizing the answer I've found
If I got you, I just might stick around

Got in a fight with myself again
And I lashed out, no surprise
Try as I might, look a saint can't sin
At least in everyone's eyes
Broken pieces, MY life
Now a puzzle on a dusty floor
And right on time
When I feel that I can't get by
I get'cha knock on my door

Y'all say "it ain't all bad"
Talk me down slow
Cheer up and take my hand
Find somewhere to go
We laugh and chat away
Nothing remains
That little cloud from today

Might ask "why?"
Cause somehow I'm still not satisfied
I swallow this helpless, selfish pride
Still not, backing down
Cause this is our town
No, I ain't frowning for you!

Smiling through
The lose-lose type disillusions
I was well on my way
To diving, all alone, thinking "damn, I miss home"
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay

Trusting, choosing allies wasn't my style
'Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
Right through this rowdy and crowded downtown
If I got you, I just might stick around

Permanent markers run
White colored pencils don't leave impressions
We took this canvas
We painted landscapes
All in our OWN shade of truth

Time and time again I can prove...

That I'm smiling through
The lose-lose days of confusion
Sure, I was well on my way
To diving, all alone, thinking "damn, I've grown up"
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay

Trusting, choosing allies
Wasn't my style
'Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
I'm realizing the answer I've found

I'm gonna smile and make you guys proud