After All

(album: Unseen Relations - 2020)

I'm living in a world, I know I don't belong

I know that I was never alone
Everyone here helped me build my throne
But somehow I am still here on my own

I'm beginning to think about everything
That took it's part on me
I've been falling asleep
And dreamed about these days where I felt free

Yet is it so hard to believe
(So hard, so hard)
When my body's ready to leave
(But after all, but after all)

But after all
There's nothing that can hold me
I've been through it all
And I forgot what could have been
Although the world is telling me
How I'm supposed to be
But after all
After all

I know that I was never taught
How to fight my fears in all my thoughts
So this river is impossible to cross

I'm beginning to think about all these years
Where I felt so wrong
And I can't fall asleep (I can't fall asleep)
Living in a world, I know I don't belong

Yet is it so hard to believe
(So hard, so hard)
When my body's ready to leave
(But after all, but after all)

But after all
There's nothing that can hold me
I've been through it all
And I forgot what could have been
Although the world is telling me
How I'm supposed to be
But after all
After all

It doesn't matter how loud I will scream
'Cause the perfect life is just a dream
I believe that nothing's as it seems (Nothing's as it seems)
It doesn't matter how far I will run
I realize that I'm still so fucking young
And our actions cannot be undone
They cannot be undone
(I realize that I'm still so fucking young)

But after all
There's nothing that can hold me
I've been through it all
And I forgot what could have been
Although the world is telling me
How I'm supposed to be
But after all
After all

But after all
There's nothing that can hold me
I've been through it all
And I forgot what could have been
Although the world is telling me
How I'm supposed to be
But after all
After all

(Yet is it so hard to believe)
(When my body's ready to leave)