One Last Letter

(album: Self Made In America - 2022)

How you doin dawg, how ya been, stayin out of trouble, how's your Mom and them?
How's work, how's the dog, how's the hustle been?
How's life, how's the songs, know you're singin them.
Me and mine are doin fine I had a baby girl.
Swear to God she gon rule the world.
You know me, I ain't really checked in in a minute, so I figured, I would finally write a letter like a lyric I would sing it so you hear it, cuz I never took the time to have a real talk.
Real talk, wish I never let you veer off.
I just wanted you to win and never look back.
I just wanted you to ride with me, kill tracks.
And now I'm writing you a letter like you're gonna read it.
Maybe if I write it down you will maybe see it.
I just wanna take it back, to the old days.
Back then, even when you had your old ways.
Called your number the other day and it still works.
I just wanted it to ring cause it still hurts.
I don't wanna let you go, it'll feel worse.
And here I'm lookin past that rain like your own words.
Man it's crazy cuz I swear that you're right here.
Every rhyme, every verse, you're in my ear.
Everywhere I seem to go, it is so clear.
I could never let you go with just one tear.
Why the fuck you gotta lose yourself?
You coulda had a billion views yourself.
You coulda made it for the people that could use your help.
You had a gift and you blew it all for using yayo.
And I ain't even gotta mention to say, I swear to God dawg you hurt a lot of people that day.
I can hear the gun cock in my dreams, and almost hear her screamin thinkin that she wasn't the means.
And every time I think about it man I fall to my knees, cuz it's the weight of the fact that you weren't there with me.
I was on the road and you was all alone and I took you off the tour like we weren't even homies.
I meant to save your life but, you wouldn't even call me.
I didn't even know that you was in the moment.
Now I'm sittin back like, you already showed me.
I ain't pay attention to the stories that you told me.

[Christian Twite:]
"Lookin out a wet window pane. Too many raindrops hittin. You never did look past that rain, but there's a rainbow in it. Trust yourself and get with it. This isn't you just let the past burn out it's finished... Goodbye."