not my friend

(album: dear amelia - 2022)

Every word I say's frustrating
I should try to just stop saying
All the stupid anecdotes 'bout all the things I think I know
But I would rather sit here waiting
Ashamed to take my medication
Looking through a lazy eye and call it all a weird fixation

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me till the morning

Maybe I'm
I'm not my friend
Just someone stuck in a body
Shame that I've
Been hard to find
But I tried to keep my promise

I celebrate misinformation
If I don't like the words I'm saying
Practicing my affirmations
Like I was told to do
But what the fuck does it all mean
To map intentions on a sheet
And blame the person next to me
Or the universe for hurting me

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me till the morning

Maybe I'm
I'm not my friend
Just someone stuck in a body

Shame that I've
Been hard to find
But I tried to keep my promise

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me till the morning