Traumatized

(album: I'm Still Serious - 2018)

Meech

The pain made me who I am, I never changed
Just saying, you seen what I seen, you'd be the same
It's crazy how I'm numb, I'm traumatized in the brain
Pop a nigga in my hood, won't nobody say my name
You can listen to my voice and tell it's straight facts
Half these niggas be cheese, man these boys some big rats
I need a bitch to myself, loyalty I need that
Keep some distance from some niggas, don't know where they head at

But most you niggas know, I push they shit back
You catch my bitch legs open, then you better smash that
And I still be showing love even though my heart cracked
And when you said that shit to me, it felt like a heart attack
Bam told me stay focused, don't let nobody bother that
Truth be told, I pop shit but I ain't really proud of that
But don't respond to everything but it's sometimes you handle that
I bought a baby choppa, put it where my heart was at
I ain't grow up in the 'burbs, I was where them sharks was at
You just know it's what I'm on if she getting too attached
And if you gave that shit away, I don't never want it back
That's a fact, I'm on the top row like I'm Jeff
I know I need to stop but I need a Percocet
Can't let it, some stuff is getting to me, got be separate
Got chased out Lafayette but that's a part of what could happen
I'm in here off Biscotti that's what help me make the magic

The pain made me who I am, I never changed
Just saying, you seen what I seen, you'd be the same
It's crazy how I'm numb, I'm traumatized in the brain
Pop a nigga in my hood, won't nobody say my name
You can listen to my voice and tell it's straight facts
Half these niggas be cheese, man these boys some big rats
I need a bitch to myself, loyalty I need that
Keep some distance from some niggas, don't know where they head at

Wear my heart on my sleeves, always there when they in need
New bitch in double C's, she only want me 'cause I'm me
Can't pay for no pussy even though these bitches cheap
Tryna to play me like she loyal, I know all these bitches cheat
I shouldn't have opened up to you, now you got me feeling weak
Up it in a quick second, ain't shit under my seat
Pulling out the parking lot, throwing the pack and the receipt
Spent days out of town, I done heard so many beeps
Them scars can't be healed, bitch look what you did to me
Wanna stop with these drugs but I'm gone mentally
And I keep this shit one hundred, I don't know what's wrong with me
I ain't no friendly ass nigga, you can't do no song with me
They tryna clone Baby Smoove, can't nobody mimic me
I'ma tell her how it is, ain't nobody real as me
My mama praying for me, I'm my biggest enemy
I can't never love again, that give you control of me
Some days I wake up and I wanna murder me
I know my son love me, I'ma teach him everything
I do all this for you, that little boy my everything
Show him how to be a boss and how his daddy had no things
Now son don't love, don't buy that ho a ring
Feel good when shit up, it's gon' kill you when she leave
I got stabbed in the back and it made my heart bleed
For you I'll go to hell and back with no shoes on my feet
And before I love a bitch, I rather fall a thousand feet
For real, I know that I'm a king, I'm a beast