BETTER

(album: if i died would anyone care - 2022)

I haven't washed my hair in two weeks
Been getting mental health checks from my friends to check if I'm alright
They never show this shit in movies
So I say yes, but it's a lie, I'm not alright
I'm not alright, I'm feeling

Low, low, low
Low, low, low
Low, low, low
I know, know, know

I don't belong here
I'm having a hard time
Stuck on the bathroom floor
And I'm spiralling and I can't stop crying
I can do better
I can be better than this
I can do better
I can be better than this

M-m-my bed's a dirty pile of clothes
That's just been stacking up for months
I have to force myself to eat and sleep
And brush my teeth because
If I don't then I won't ever remember how to be
A human, I'm useless
I can't feel anything
I'm low, low, low
I know, know, know

I don't belong here
I'm having a hard time
Stuck on the bathroom floor
And I'm spiralling and I can't stop crying
I can do better
I can be better than this
I can do better
I can be better than this

I can be better than this
I can do better
I can be better than this
I can do better
I can be better than this

I don't belong here
I'm having a hard time
Stuck on the bathroom floor
And I'm spiralling and I can't stop crying
It's all a nightmare
I'm losing it big time
Been on this hamster wheel for the last four years
And I'm fucking tired

I can do better
I can be better than this
I can do better
I can be better than this