October

(album: Beneath The Roses - 2023)

Packing up my old apartment
Living in a past, I can't escape
But I don't even know what love is
I wanted a friend not an enemy
Smoking cigarettes outside and
Going over plans we couldn't wait
To finally get our own life started
But honestly I knew someday
I'd compromise it all and now
I know that you won't
Ever tell me it's okay before I go

So I'll call you on my way
To jump off the highway
And tell you that it's not your fault
That you were so good to me
Loved me like nobody else
But you can't break my fall
That there's something about you
I can't live without you
Remember the best parts of me
And maybe when I'm six feet underground
You'll finally know how much I miss you now

I remember sleeping over summer nights
At your old house
It suddenly became october
And I became a secondhand handout
Calm me down I'm getting so frustrated I know
That you'll never say goodbye before I go

So I'll call you on my way
To jump off the highway
And tell you that it's not your fault
That you were so good to me
Loved me like nobody else
But you can't break my fall
That there's something about you
I can't live without you
Remember the best parts of me
And maybe when I'm six feet underground
You'll finally know how much I miss you now
You can't reach me when I'm not around
So call me back before I hit the ground