Off & On

(album: Better Luck Tomorrow - 2018)

Off and on I feel like it's all gone
Off and on I feel like it's all gone

I want to scream but I'm underwater
It's harder, the farther you get
The more pressure that hits
I'll take my time but sometimes wander
To the darkness I encounter
I gotta keep my composure

Or maybe I'm just hell bent
On everything that's past tense
And everything that's pretend

Off and on I feel like it's all gone
I don't want to remember
Pour it down my liver
And off and on I sleep through my alarm
Cause my thoughts are like fire
Wake up I'm still tired
(Still tired)

I'll keep hanging on to memories
That's not letting me get healthy
Like when we were making nothing
Or breaking down across the country
I've gotta stay underneath these thin grey sheets
Because sometimes possibilities get the best of me

Or maybe I'm just hell bent
On everything that's past tense
And everything that's pretend

Off and on I feel like it's all gone
I don't want to remember
Pour it down my liver
And off and on I sleep through my alarm
Cause my thoughts are like fire
Wake up I'm still tired

I'll write these words down in the dirt
So if I drown they'll still be heard
I'll write these words down in the dirt
So if I drown they'll still be heard
I'll write these words down in the dirt
So if I drown they'll still be heard
Small breaths in and out
Does that even count?
I'll write these words down in the dirt
So if I drown they'll still be heard
Small breaths in and out
Does that even count?

Off and on I feel like it's all gone
I don't want to remember
Pour it down my liver
And off and on I sleep through my alarm
Cause my thoughts are like fire
Wake up I'm still tired

Off and on I see new colors drawn
Filling in shades of hope
There's still time for some new growth
And off and on I sleep through my alarm
Cause I'm too busy dreaming
I swear they have meaning