Everafter

(album: Retrofit - 2021)

Looking back on the way I spent every second passed
As they came and went
I feel like a stranger in my own skin
Just a passenger to my own extinction
A bright future or a colorful past
Every shade fades gray with a dying gasp
And all in all it's all the same view from the grave

Am I a prisoner of my indecision or just another casualty of reality?
Should I give it my best or should I just give it a rest?

I've made mistakes along the way
With every breath I take but
Lately they've been making me
Feel like the worst mistake and I
I know I sound like a broken record
But my mind isn't getting any better
I'll fake a smile while I'll say
Everything's a-okay

Some days, I feel like I can finally breathe
Other days, life just gets the best of me
Now my heart is on my sleeve and my cards are on the table
And I'm starting to believe the place inside my head is far from stable

Am I a prisoner of my indecision or just another casualty of reality?
Should I give it my best or should I just give it a rest?

I've made mistakes along the way
With every breath I take but
Lately they've been making me
Feel like the worst mistake and I
I know I sound like a broken record
But my mind isn't getting any better
I'll fake a smile while I'll say
Everything's a-okay, I'm great today

But behind this charade
My thoughts, they wander
And I'm left here to wonder...

Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?

Will it ever be enough for me to finally be happy?
Will it ever be enough for me to finally be happy?
Will it ever be enough?
Will I ever be enough?

Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?
Will I ever be happy?

(Will I ever be happy?)
Maybe happiness is just some sort of temporary rush
Between a steady stream of pain we can't escape
Maybe happiness is just some sort of temporary rush
Between a steady stream of pain we can't escape

Happiness is fleeting but still we search for meaning
We wanna think we matter but we'll never get an answer
Happiness is fleeting but still we search for meaning
We wanna think we matter but we'll never get an answer
Happiness is fleeting but still we search for meaning
We wanna think we matter but we'll never get an answer
Happiness is fleeting but still we search for meaning
We wanna think we matter but we'll never get an answer
Happiness is fleeting but still we search for meaning
We wanna think we matter...