Better Alone

(album: Still Lost 2 - 2021)

Yeah, depression is my enemy, feel I'm forever stuck with it
Outsiders looking in can't see I'm mentally struggling
So much on my plate, there's multiple things that I'm juggling
It all comes in waves, let my ship sink because I'm done with this
Hate my stupid ass ex, cuz I don't know how to trust again
My self-worth is crumbling, try to walk but I'm stumbling
They ask how I feel, I fight the tears, then I start stuttering
I'ma keep it real, felt this for years, and I'm still
Still suffering, damn
Someone tell me where's the day went
All on my phone, wow, this is how my days spent
Wasted all this time and I can't get it back but
I'll push it aside cuz I'll break down and snap, I
Hate the way I feel, there's gotta be a better me
Cuz all of this pain, people get a lesser me
These demons taunt me daily, they always get the best of me
I wish they die a slow death and don't rest in peace, yeah

Thought I'd be better alone
Still tryna find somewhere to go
I been stuck on this road, ooo
So alone, by myself
Look around, there's no one else
I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone (Lone)

Yeah, I miss my daughter every single day
Me and her mom had went our separate ways
And that's okay, cuz we were hella toxic
But we're cool, happy and well
But I just hate sharing you
Half a week hurts me like hell
I hate being without you
I keep thinking about you
This separations killing me
I'm in-completed without you
You're daddy's baby, you're my princess
If you need something, I'm a get it
Fuck the cost, kuz I'ma spend it
Here forever don't forget it, damn
I refrain from being vulnerable
Cuz when I do, I break down and get emotional
The PTSD strikes, it hurts the most
And when I do, I lose my top, like a convertible
Every song I do is personal
This feelings horrible, I wish I could just escape it
Waking up gasping for air, I drown in my self-hatred
I hope that god has a plan at the end of what I'm going thru
Cuz I don't have nobody I can turn to, I just know I

Thought I'd be better alone
Still tryna find somewhere to go
I been stuck on this road, ooo
So alone, by myself
Look around, there's no one else
I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone (Lone)