Beautiful

(album: The Things We Can't Forgive - 2021)

In the spiraling mind
What do we dive in and find?
The deeper we fall
Depends on just how high that we climb
I guess we all built this wall
Here one lie at a time
And went to great lengths for the longest
To try to deny em
Did you resolve your past yet?
Cause I didn't mine
So between love and hate
Just how wide is the line?
For me to bottle all this pain
Is just deciding on dying
That's the urgency I have
When I'm writing a rhyme
Every fiber inside
Of this fire of mine
Is full of ire a virus
In such a violent time
I take the wrath and the pride
And just divide it in sides
You feel the passion arise
As it arrives in his eyes
And I'm gone
Back into this standing parade
Pull the pin out on this fucking hand grenade that I wave
Left abandoned betrayed I played a hand in this fate
Maybe that's the only thing I understand and create

They say I'm strange
And I'm unusual
This all I got here
My life is a musical
I know you don't love me
You love what I do for you
They call it ugly
But I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange yeah
And I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here
I'm trying to get through to you
Ain't nobody love you
Just look what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal
And uh I make it beautiful

When I'm in your speakers
Half the rhyme I go jeepers creepers
I play for keepers
Smash phenomenal pieces
This is a star being born
Astrological features
How do you mourn
Pathological creatures
Riding the storm
Till five in the morn
Colliding with scorn
Taking a bath with these leeches
Jesus it's such a passionate thesis
I leak on pieces of pages
There's no peace in this beast
I try to keep it in cages
But I can't contain it
Blood and pain in a painting
What a strange entertaining
Sudden change when he's saying it
Cut a vein and then drain it
That's the level of payment
That I gave to the game
No other way to explain it ain't it
Something worth living for
I found in my darkness
Will I be forgiven or
Go drown with the heartless
I guess it still remains to be seen
If I can just go back to sleep and try changing the dream

They say I'm strange
And I'm unusual
This all I got here
My life is a musical
I know you don't love me
You love what I do for you
They call it ugly
But I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange yeah
I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here
I'm trying to get through to you
Ain't nobody love you
Just look what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal
And uh I make it beautiful