if i die

(album: Still Alone - 2020)

I'ma mind my own business
Fuck my feelings

And I'm sad and she sad too
If I die then I had to
My life is turned upside-down, like why? (Why?)

And God damn (God damn)
I don't wanna write no list
I don't wanna fuck my wrist, God damn (God damn)
Took it all the way
Took it all the way
It goes away
Then it comes back again
Damn, I'ma guess you lost another friend (another)
Talking about it like it's a God damn choice (it ain't a choice)
Keep on fucking talking I'ma shut your voice
'Cause I rock designer, don't mean I'm Gucci
You would know if you fucking knew me
She said, "Let them talk, it goes right through me"
I don't know if she said that truly

Hello, you don't gotta lie
And I know it's hard sometimes
How can they think that we don't try
Even though we tell them

And I'm sad and she sad too
If I die then I had to
My life is turned upside-down, like why? (Why?)
And I'm sad and she sad too
If I die then I had to
My life is turned upside-down, like why? (Why?)

And I tip-toe back to the darkness
I don't want this
What the fuck is it you not get?
I don't really wanna talk it out (Yeah)
I just really wanna walk it out
I'ma mind my own business
But my feelings slowly killing
They be drilling into my head
You don't wanna come and see it, you don't

I used to say that I was blessed
But now I feel like I'm possessed
To live my life, I think it's over
Yeah, yeah

And I'm sad and she sad too
If I die then I had to
My life is turned upside-down, like why? (Why?)
And I'm sad and she sad too
If I die then I had to
My life is turned upside-down, like why?