My Demise

(album: Pinnacle Of Bedlam - 2013)

The thought and the chance
To lose or perhaps to gain
A new found worth or disgust
None the wiser could know

Why is it my burden or blessing
To be the one to go through this loss
To lose or gain a chance at living
Why must I be this barer of such burdens?

To be this fortunate or cursed
I know not the difference with such weight on my shoulders

Again I must continue on the quest given to me
It is not a question, it is the answer I will be the victor

I'll die too many times and not have learned
The lessons forced upon me
I live not for myself
But for some greater good in this hell we call home

I no longer exist here among men
I've succumb to an unknown force
It's reduced me to nothing

I am not here even now, where am I?
As I still breath

I'm not alive, not to feel
But rather to suffer and die
A lifetime that spans eternity
Too strong to selfishly close the book of life

This terrible nightmare that I'm living must be all in my head