Disappear

(album: Generation Nightmare - 2019)

Please don't let me go outside of my bedroom
Or I won't live another day, I promise I'll be dead soon
You cannot understand the kind of life that I've gone through
Is what I tell myself to feel better but it don't really help rather
Place blame live in shame so inane it's my fault
And all you have to say is look at everything it cost
True, I'm a soul so lost
True, my addiction knows no cross
I just want to close my eyes and try my best to sleep it off
When I'm high I'm so high that the lows don't exist
An when I float by the whole time I ain't move an inch
I lost control in my left eye and now I'm stuck with this twitch
An all the sores over my body are contagious as shit
I need you here 'cause if this don't work and my body's too weak
For me to fight through the withdrawals hold on let me speak
I don't want to be another junkie on a leash
Just blowing through my life like garbage in the streets
So I'll take my last chance and hope I get to see the sun
But if this don't work out I need you to let everybody come
And maybe they won't make the same kind of mistakes as I've done
But if they do at least they get a chance to see the only outcome

All my problems go...disappear disappear
Close my eyes and then... disappear disappear
Holdin my head I can't... disappear disappear
Open my eyes I hope... disappear disappear
All my problems go... I can make it disappear
Close my eyes and then... watch it all disappear
Holdin my head I can't ... I hope that it disappear
Open my eyes I hope... that it all disappear

Inkblots like a rorschach test
Tell me what you see as my thoughts manifest
Like a noose on my neck and the bricks on my feet
And a demon on my chest and he listens when I sleep
Complicated life changes once
Either mutate with it or you live in disgust
Overcome by the pressure like a fish belly up
Obstacles in life can be different various
To the ones who break the bread and eat the crust
Some throw you into the wheel wells under the bus
I'm trying to be different trying to love and trust
But the bad taste lingers like the memory of us
I can't change it back but I can back it up now
Forth this life as a guideline
With the grains of sand I'm not a pillar of salt
Who's fault and why we argue all the time
Disappear into thin air shell
Of a man never felt here
In the first tense
Still I feel a purpose to change
The world before I purge the soul of serpents
I can make anything happen
You ain't seen nothing but fractions
Feelings and overreactions
Hate and attraction
Giving my sentiments traction
Verbally all terrain
Right off the rails like a runaway train
Saying that we are the same is insane
And all of this happens inside of my brain
And everything there in contained
Today and every day I push it away
And make it disappear
Your life's a mess, I make it crystal clear
Take a listen here
You can change gears, fuck fear

All my problems go...disappear disappear
Close my eyes and then... disappear disappear
Holdin my head I can't... disappear disappear
Open my eyes I hope... disappear disappear
All my problems go... I can make it disappear
Close my eyes and then... watch it all disappear
Holdin my head I can't ... I hope that it disappear
Open my eyes I hope... that it all disappear