If It Matters What I Think Now

(album: Generation Nightmare - 2019)

I don't wanna be lonely, I wanna be alone
Too many things in my world are going on
I can't shut 'em off or turn the voices down
A crowded room when you want no one around
Overwhelms me and upsets me feeling weak
'Cause you're not here to protect me and tell me
That everything's fine so I can realign
With the reality we're living in 'cause I get lost sometimes
You're a lifeline
Ready to bring me back
When I'm not here and I don't know how to act
Fast forward and I fade to black
And I'm hoping I got another video life game stacked
So when I wake I can get back on track
And you told me to go would you let me back in
I been changing rearranging
I'll always be the static on your radio station
Whether you dial me out or dial me in or dial me up
Every now again I'll be there or fucked up
And you can pretend that I'm better than I ever been
But we would only be lying to each other again
I'm bad news in old shoes and these old soles
Love each other more than anyone else do
And so when I asked you before when I passed through
Does anyone out there feel that for you

If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down

If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down

I could always see right through you
Never nothing more than cellophane
So clear what your agenda was
To put this all in a shallow grave
My career suicide was a game I wasn't ready to play
Now living it everyday with every word that I say
Is a gamble that I'm willing to take
I put it all on the table like dinner plates
(From the summer to the winter)
When I just think you gotta get away
From the bitter people they like
Literally just liter me with the hate
Hoping that I break
Sink into the bottom of the blackest lake
But you pull me out and I do the same
For you I'm true for life, believe me that won't change
With the whole world waiting on the word to rearrange
We just keep it in the family fuck it if ya mad at me
We don't change the game came to us like rain on the window pain
And we won't break or bust like big ole lames
Who can't touch me like a big ole flame
Just burning 'em up...

If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down

If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
If it doesn't matter what I think now
If it doesn't matter how I feel now
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down
Tell me where you'll be when it all falls down