I Don't Wanna Be Here

(album: Pins & Needles - 2018)

I can't make sense of things, I say what I mean
Why do I wake up and think about who I'm supposed to be?
It's never been a mystery, late at night you get to me
Ashes of my past are choking me and make it hard to breathe
And I don't wanna do this on my own
Cause death is crawling up my leg, and whispering "It's coming home"
And when the fuck will I feel home, I feel so distant from it all
Feels like you're hanging on my wall, I bet that cell is getting small

I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here, no more
Why I gotta be here, why I gotta be here?
Why I gotta be here, at all?

You fuck my head up, fuck my head up
And I'm sick of it
I'm so fed up, I'm so fed up
Let me leave all this
I wanna bash my head into the sink and fall asleep

You fuck my head up, fuck my head up
And I'm sick of it
I'm so fed up, I'm so fed up
Let me leave all this
I wanna bash my head into the sink and fall asleep

I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here, no more
Why I gotta be here, why I gotta be here?
Why I gotta be here, at all?