I Can't

(album: Still Not Black Enough - 1995)

I can't laugh I can't cry I can't see inside of me
Don't know the reason why

I ain't straight
And I ain't high
I'm the ugly in between
Can't live and I can't die

I wanna scream
And I can't win
My life's a living soundtrack
For a human horror film
I can't feel
And I can't love
My mama never showed me how
I never was enough

I can't laugh
And I can't smile
I'll sacrifice my aged elders
To show me how to die
I can't love
And I can't feel
And my mother never loved me
Deep down she hated me

I can't fuck
I can't feel
I'm one bizzare motherfucker
What the fuck's inside of me

I'll kill the beast so to free my soul
And smash the mirrors that won't let me go
Oh if there's a smile that ya see
It's only the clockwork orange that's in me

I curse the darkness impassioned plea
And tear the heart out and watch me bleed
I'll sacrifice my blood for free
To satisfy the vengence that's in me
And bury the mirror that's inside me