I'm Weak Inside

(album: 24 Hour Roadside Resistance - 2000)

Another day in this broke down place
The towers grow and the skies are slowly replaced
With the cold gray structures that lay to waste
Everything that stands in the way

Stare at the ground as I walk on by
You make me sick and I hate what I feel inside
As I lobby for acceptance, you know I've tried
Another life for you to nullify

I'm weak inside because I see the shape of things to come
Because I don't change what's begun
Because I hate what I've become

I'm feeling empty as I struggle with my thoughts each day
Just a drone who contributes to his own decay
An apathist who's sweat and blood grease the wheels for pay
Just a whore for the puppeteer to whom I obey

And nothing changes... No nothing changed today
I close my eyes and keep my mouth shut
Why am I afraid to stand up and knock them down
When I've been betrayed
You've been conditioned to accept everything they say

So I walk on but I start to stumble
Through the ruins of a life that's troubled
By the expectations I'm conditioned to struggle for
My possessions leave me self-absorbed

So many bombs I've left unblown
The streets are crowded and I feel so all alone
Stacking bricks that to this day remain unthrown
Yet I'm the one to cast the first stone