Maybe I'll Wait

(album: Pity Boy - 2019)

I am waiting for the Sun to block itself out
I have been told that it won't happen for a while
I feel sensitive and old
And I am 10, no I am 24
I don't know what I do it for
I wish could write something to convince you not to go

But I don't know anyone or anything to do the right thing when they're alone
Except it feels like I've been trying to be better since I've known what better was
And are you better off alone
Do you suspect they never loved you
Just themselves reflected off
'Cause I don't know

Maybe I'll wait
Maybe I'll stay another year or two, okay
Maybe I'll wait
Maybe I'll stay another year

I won't ever get you back
I can't even kill a cockroach
You got it with a broom
At least I hid inside my room
I am as useless as they come
And are you used to all this talk yet
You say I don't like myself but I've been trying to reverse it

And do you know anyone or anything to do the right thing when they're alone
Because it feels like I've been trying to be better but I know it's what it was
And always better off alone
Because I doubt that you could love me
Maybe yourself reflected off
But I don't know

Maybe I'll wait
Maybe I'll stay another year or two, okay
Maybe I'll wait
Maybe I'll stay another year

But I'll keep looking for you
Another year and nothing different or new
I've got things that I wanted to do
So I'll keep looking for you