Dear Dad Part 2

(album: Faith Fate Hope - 2014)

Last time I wrote you a letter
I thought it would, I don't know
Motivate you or something
To become the father I thought you once were
Fuck it

Dear dad, I'm glad you never said to hold my breath
Cause I'd have suffocated waiting for replying text
And it made me go insane, everyday I was depressed
Cause if the devil spoke in tongues then you would know his dialect
Besides from that, I haven't seen or heard from you in five years
Before that day I always said you'd be my pioneer
And if I was in trouble you'd say, "Fear not, cause I'm here"
So if you didn't know, you'd get the idea
Cause every night I stayed awaiting, homesick and so impatient
Hoping you might just hit up my phone for some conversation
But while my heart would ache, you would wilding out in oasis
And dining out in the cape, and just riding in your Mercedes
I've learned to just accept that all your senses to neglect me were intentional
Especially now, since maybe hence the other reason for this letters intent
Is that I don't forgive you but I'm about to forget
No point in being upset

I'm forgetting to remember that you left me all alone (alone)
But without you here this house is not a home
Ohhh nooo noo
And maybe I just lost my temper, I wouldn't have if you didn't lose your mind
But I admit that now it's cold
Cause this house is not a home

What up dad, do you remember when I asked in O' twelve
What up dad, I realized you only care for yourself
What up dad, but now I see your mind is trapped in a cell
I mean all four of your kids would wanna see you in hell
What up dad, damn I feel like I'm becoming you
I see the way I talk down at my girl when she's vulnerable
But if I choose to block it out, I swear I just discovered you
You'll be gone for good, and I will keep that shit one hundred too
You see a real man would stay with his kids
Even if they said they hated him and blatantly did
Man, I'm your motherfucking seed nigga
Check my name alias
Check my thoughts, check my blood for your DNA lives
Living proof that people don't change
I gave you 5 years to call and say that you'll remain
So keep your magic, keep your cards, keep your damn pride
But what you never keep is something money can't buy
AND THAT'S ME!

I'm forgetting to remember that you left me all alone (alone)
But without you here this house is not a home
Ohhh nooo noo
And maybe I just lost my temper, I wouldn't have if you didn't lose your mind
But I admit that now it's cold
Cause this house is not a home

You see I never had a dad to begin with
All I had was someone who pretended, it's senseless
Using me to plot against my mom for your vengeance
And if he hears this song, good, I hope he gets offended
Cause my momma raised me up without you
Paid the bills without you
Everything to prove that we were better off without you
And it's the last time I've wrote to you, sincerely irrevocable
Your one and only son is now a ghost to you
To all you other parents who still in your kids' life
I salute you, never let them out of your sight
Cause if I had a son, I'd never be a sucker
Or threaten to kill his mother if she found a new significant other
And if you're someone with a parent who's walked out on you
Raise your fist in the air, cause I'm here and I'm telling you that I'm proud of you
Cause we both know your middle finger is more important
So raise it to the sky every time you sing the chorus

I'm forgetting to remember that you left me all alone (alone)
But without you here this house is not a home
Ohhh nooo noo
And maybe I just lost my temper, I wouldn't have if you didn't lose your mind
But I admit that now it's cold
Cause this house is not a home

Cause this house is not a home