I Deserve Better

(album: Blackheart Boulevard - 2018)

Don't you tell me this ain't what you want, oh yeah (oh yeah)
We almost had it, we were almost there (almost)
These apologies are overdue
Now it's too late because I'm over you (over you, over you)

Yeah she's over me, now I want her back
I don't even wanna tell her that
Maybe it's pride, maybe it's ego
Maybe the fact is I'm still attached
Maybe I do need to let her go
Maybe I just need the time to grow
'Cause she was so focused on loving me
And I was focused on models and centerfolds

Issues with commitment
Issues with the distance
Issues with these issues
'Cause he's fucked up with his feelings
Problems with emotions
Problems with devotion
And when he left her
This is what she told him

I deserve better
You should've treated me better
(I should've, I could've, I didn't)
And you act like all of this
Was my fault, my fault
None of any of this
Was my fault, my fault

So happy never ever ever
Shot the bullet in my heart with that Beretta
And I aimed it at you
And you act like all of this
Was my fault, my fault
None of any of this
Was my fault, my fault

Baby girl I know it's all my fault
Broken promises, it's all my fault
Oh I know it's all my fault
I wish that it all worked out
Don't you say, don't take it personal
'Cause even though I left, it hurt to go
Now those memories are on my mind
And I still think about it all the time
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I know she's thinking bout him all the time
All I did was try to make her mine
All I did was try to show her
Even if the rainfall the sun still gon' shine
Maybe I shouldn't have let her in
That's probably the worst thing I ever did
'Cause I was so focused on loving her
And she was focused on someone who never did

Issues with commitment
Issues with the distance
Issues with the issues
'Cause she's fucked up with her feelings
Problems with no closure
Probably the older
And this is what he said
When it was over

I deserve better
You should've treated me better
(I should've, I could've, I didn't)
And you act like all of this
Was my fault, my fault
None of any of this
Was my fault, my fault

So happy never ever ever
Shot the bullet in my heart with that Beretta
And I aimed it at you
And you act like all of this
Was my fault, my fault
None of any of this
Was my fault, my fault

As humans we carry all this pain from our previous relationships
And we unintentionally give it to the next person
I know that hurt people hurt people
So at the same time we also gotta be aware of that
We inherit all this baggage from one person then dump it on the next person
And the cycle just continues
So if there's anything to take from this song
Let it be to love openly, love hard, but most importantly
Leave the past where it belongs