Overthinking

(album: Distance - 2020)

Stay up late and I can't sleep
I lose time and I don't why
Words circle in my head like
Poison with a needle and a thread
Sew me up
Keep my head shut
Panic and anger fill up my bedroom
Thinking about the words that you were screaming as your make up ran
Ever slowly down your face
I think I went and said too much
Shit

And maybe I'm just overthinking
Maybe I don't really need to know
But so much times been wasted
And I'm just stuck thinking that it's all the same
Who but I thinks about it everyday?
What makes you fuck with my head when I say that I'm okay
And there's no way I could let you take it?
(Ha, yeah)

I'm a mess and that's really nothing new to you
Break my neck from all the stress you fucking put me through
And I don't know why I still let you waste my time but you
You've got nothing to prove
And I'm nothing like you

And lately I'm feeling displaced
In every single space
That I spend time in and I can't relate
Cause of the words that I wrote were mistakes
And I just see hate when I look in your face
And all my hallways
They echo endless and always
My voice remained just incoherent
All I wanted was just to talk to you

And every single night I'm awake!
I feel my armor slip away!
As you dig the knife inside of me!
I felt my walls collide with you!

I'm a mess and that's really nothing new to you
Break my neck from all the stress you fucking put me through
And I don't know why I still let you waste my time but you
You've got nothing to prove
And I'm nothing like you!

When's it enough?!
This is has gone way past love
It just feels personal
It keeps me up!
And I'm so paranoid
I keep distance just to hold
My head above the water!
You'd have me sink right through with you!

(I felt my walls collide with you!)

I'm a mess and that's really nothing new to you
Break my neck from all the stress you fucking put me through
And I don't know why I still let you waste my time but you
You've got nothing to prove
And I'm nothing like you!