Tough Love

(album: CROWN - 2021)

I don't really wanna know
If it's true you reap what you sow
Full capacity, I'm 'bout to blow
And I gotta do this on my own
I can't be what you want me to be
You still see what you want to see
So I scream

Head as hard as iron, stubborn, and I'm not desired
My rage set all my enemies' heads on fire
Can't hit the bricks, I'm burning rubber on them tires
If I said I'm okay, then I'd be a liar
No smile, I'm not expressionate, big attitude, I'm checking it
This lifetime is indefinite, so I'm no impressionist
You can't hold my hand, nah (Bitch), I'm not affectionate
I've been burned before, that's why my love is deficit
I've been tryna forge this, I can not afford this
Every single scream, I mean, how can you ignore this?
Your view distorted, I should be awarded
For that to happened, I'd need to be supported

I don't really wanna know
If it's true you reap what you sow
Full capacity, I'm 'bout to blow
And I gotta do this on my own
I can't be what you want me to be
You still see what you want to see
So I scream

Close my eyes and see
I feel that vulnerability
Phobic of the feelings I hide
Like the thoughts of me killing me
Time stick and I can't even think
Thought I could float, I'm starting to sink
Had no sleep, I ain't even blink
Just my shadow and me in the ring
I thought this was my catalyst
From the looks of the analysis
I'm stunned from the paralysis
Of the world being too damn adamant
"You should be this, you should be that" Uh
"You known for this, you can't be Black" Ooh
"You was right, we ain't see that" What?
I almost died, you ain't see that? Uh
Who I gotta be to win this? Ooh
So many miles, I'm winded, yeah
But the game still won't end yet, yeah
I'ma put "crown" on my checklist, uh
I'ma fuck it up, I'm reckless, yeah
So sick, my flow infectious
I don't need to give 'em smoke
To leave these niggas breathless, uh

I don't want no tough love, if it really ain't love
I don't want no words like daggers in disguise
Nothing you say can stop my rise
Funny how I don't ask, bitches still got feedback
Rose from the ashes, loved by the masses
Now I'm a diamond built from the pressure, yeah

I don't really wanna know
If it's true you reap what you sow
Full capacity, I'm 'bout to blow
And I gotta do this on my own
I'm so alone