I Swear I'm Usually Pretty Good At This

(album: The Cardboard Swords - 2015)

Here I am
Trying to fight this urge again
And I find that I
Am growing distant
More so from these friends
Think twice
And realize you only ever needed to think once
Since it was eight or nine
Long hard stupid months
Of grinding your teeth
And trying to be
Somebody you were
Not you were not underneath
And now I'm forced in concern with you are underneath
It's hard to keep myself from wondering

If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Why'd you have to write this all down
If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Humor me with who you think you are now

Do you think that he
Would be surprised to find her across from me
Of all people
Of all people me at this all night diner
And what would it be
And how would it go
Was it a lie or a stupid reminder
Of this guy who was
Who was
Leaps and bounds behind her
Some time wasted and spent
A connection that came and went
You are being dumb right now girl
Go ask your boyfriend
And I am being dumb right now girl
What has changed since back then
I swear to god I don't believe in
This is stupider than we've ever been

If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Why'd you have to write this all down
If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Humor me with who you think you are now
Humor me with who you think you are now

Now I'm singing the same song
All goddamn day long
'Cause it's the only one I remember

If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Why'd you have to write this all down
If you are not the same boy and it is so obvious
Humor me with who you think you are now
Humor me with who you think you are now