Even Though I'm Depressed

(album: Phases - 2019)

Stay patient
All I have to do is stay patient
Life's changing
So I might have to make some rearrangements
I roll the dice and I feel so alive and then I'm lifeless
And I don't like it
But honestly, the irony is priceless 'cause

I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I kinda like it even though I'm depressed
I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I fucking love it even though I'm depressed

Only call it a living 'cause I'm still alive
Only open up the doors if they're suicide
I'm anxious to my core but I'm doing fine
Try to keep my distance from the law
Keep my peace of mind
You can't change in a day
So I spend every second taking care of my brain
I might fill up all the emptiness with diamonds and chains
And if you wanna get to stepping you'll get punched in the face
But it's alright

I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I kinda like it even though I'm depressed
I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I fucking love it even though I'm depressed

Well even though I'm depressed I'm not sorry
I don't wanna leave this bed at all
I've got a brick on my chest
Hell is gripping my legs
And there's a demon, he's ten foot tall
But honestly, he doesn't seem like much of a threat

I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I kinda like it even though I'm depressed
I'm caught on the fence
I'm either happy or I wish I was dead
My life is a mess
I fucking love it even though I'm depressed