Mannequin

(album: July Madness! - 2020)

I'm feeling trapped in my mind
Nowhere to go
I'm paralyzed
Feel like a mannequin
I don't feel right in my skin
I can't break out
I just might lose control

Look
Lost control of who I thought I was (Thought I was)
Alchoholic ever since I got a buzz (Got a buzz)
Pressure weighing on me what I thought I loved (Loved)
Started ducking me unless they needed something from
Me again, seeing dad I was on the rise
Lost my parents when I popped, all he knows is crime
So behind and I'm broke like a folded spine
[?] rhymes, then it happens two more times
Tumor lines that are cancer going undetected (Shit)
Unaffected from the drugs that I fill my head with
Thank the lord that I made it this far
Since the devil nearly killed me in a quest to get a blessing
Soul protection, my angels will protect me (No, they won't)
My soul is tempted 'cause my demons all respect me (Think they will?)
They understand that I'm stranded where I am
'Cause the strand of what I planned isn't panning out correctly

I'm feeling trapped in my mind (In my mind)
Nowhere to go (Nowhere to go)
I'm paralyzed
I feel like a mannequin
I don't feel right in my skin
I can't break out
I just might lose control

Mind is creeping
I've been seething
I can't help but overreaching
Whisper things like "let me help you"
"Let me in please"

Hello (Hi)
Let me in please, knock at the door (Who's there)
This is CHVSE and my music's getting hard to ignore
Cut the beat, on the snare, put them hats on the floor
And bring it back with the kick, clock, ticking before (Sheesh)
Times up, 'cause I got the victory (What?)
His story's getting passed like history (Damn)
Can't watch 'cause my vision just gets blurry
I'm the best, hands down
Oh shit, it's six thirty in the A.M when I'm writing this ([*yawn*])
I should get a little sleep but I don't like to rest (Nah)
Devil told me I should sleep
Tried to fight him as a kid by writing shit
But if I could go back and be 12, I'd invite him in

I'm feeling trapped in my mind
Nowhere to go
I'm paralyzed
But feel like a mannequin
I don't feel right in my skin
I can't break out
I just might lose con
I'm feeling trapped in my mind, ohh
Nowhere to go
I'm paraly ah
But feel like a mannequin
I don't feel right in my skin
I can't break out
I just might lose control