Steven

(album: July Madness! - 2020)

[SkyDxddy:]
You don't know what to do, yeah
You don't know what to do no more
No matter what you do
You feel like the world has been coming after you
You don't know what to do, yeah
You don't know what to do no more
No matter what you do
You feel like the world has been coming after you

[CHVSE:]
Look let mw guess he was just like me
Bad grades bad grammer he was dumb like me
Had friends had fam he had fun like me
But he don't try to live his dream 'cause it was like Lee
For him to touch it
So he just went on with his life
He never took the chance 'cause he was scared to roll the dice
Instead of being him he just took the old advice
And became the perfect image they imbedded in his mind
Look, but all of a sudden he regrets it
'Cause no matter what he does no one ever gives him credit
He could find the cure to cancer and they'd still call him pathetic
Now the evil's tryna seep into his brain
And he just let it go control him
And everything that he knew
He built a wall for his emotions so nobody gets through
And if they do he starts freaking out like "Man, fuck you
Yo I don't need no more support 'cause you would fuck me too"
And now he's stuck in a loop be cause he burnt another bridge
With somebody that's concerned on how he trult felt within
He could tell 'em that he's sorry and the hopes that they forgive
But the anxiety kicked in and now his thoughts begin to spin
Up in a circle wondering if they were even friends
Or if they asked him out of pity 'cause they knew what's in his head
When he was up late at night hoping all this shit would end
All those feelings of remorse and every wish that he was dead
But instead he picked up a pen and wrote a note
He said "I'm sorry mom but it's time that your Steven goes"
He finished up the letter and placed it by the phone
Put the barrel to his lips then he pulled the trigger slow

[SkyDxddy:]
You don't know what to do, yeah
You don't know what to do no more
No matter what you do
Feels like the world has been coming after you

[Verse 2: CHVSE]
Look, see Lynn's a single mother
She's working every day to feed her son a plate of supper
She loved him with her life and wouldn't trade him for another
Even tho he skipped school stayed at home and caused trouble (Look)
'Cause she just wanted the best for her and him
And it was all while she was working in shifts
'Cause she was stripping at the club and guys would rub up on her tits
And it reminded her of her husband who just fucked her and ditched
She almost quit but then she thoughts about Steve
And how he's only 16 and needs some food he can eat
'Cause if she don't provide that they're gonna take him away
And she won't ever get to see him at the end of the day
Well one day while she was out stripping at work
She told her boss that she was sick and that her head fully hurt
See she took the day off to be at home with her son
But when she opened up the door she heard the sound of a gun
She panicked and run towards to the entrance of his room
Hoping it that going off from an accident but soon
She would realize that she was thinking wasn't true
And that her son just took his life with the gun that was from her room
She kicked the door open and seen him laying lifeless
She yelled "Steve, can you open up your eyelids?"
He couldn't answer 'cause the bullets in his throat
She ran to call for help then seen the letter by the phone
She picked it up and then she read it to herself, it said
"Dear mom I think you're better by yourself
'Cause I don't have a job and I know that you have felt
That I've always been a burden so I thought that this would help"

[SkyDxddy:]
You don't know what to do
You don't know what to do no more
No matter what you do
Feels like the world has been coming after you

You don't know what to do, yeah
You don't know what to do no more
No matter what you do
Feels like the world has been coming after you