Living In The Grey

(album: Never Going Under - 2023)

I was hopeless in the bathroom of the rainbow bar
Took 27 years just to land this part
Was it all I ever wanted? Was it a dream come true?
I was looking in the mirror, saying "Who the fuck are you?"

I brought my fears with me and some shiny shoes
They told me to be happy and then plied me with booze
I had a picture of my family on the background of my phone
To give myself some company but it made me more alone

And it hurts sometimes
Even when the weather's fine
Even when my child smiles
And people say it's black and white
But I'm living in the grey
Yeah, I'm living in the grey

I was pulling back my sleeves, soaked in salt
Clinging to the darkness like everything was my fault
And I held to the table, I could hardly move
Yeah, my voice was kinda shaky in this crimson leather booth

And if all the whisky's mine tonight
I should stay up late
And drink to the boy I used to be
And the man I am today

And it hurts sometimes
Even when the weather's fine
Even when my child smiles
And people say it's black and white
But I'm living

And it hurts sometimes
Even when the weather's fine
Even when my child smiles
And people say it's black and white
But I'm living in the grey
Yeah, I'm living in the grey

Oh yeah
Yeah, I'm living in the grey