Dopesick Love

Standing tall 'cause they would rather see me crawl
But honestly, they'd probably rather see us fall
So when it comes to this, I always give my all
I'm grateful for my friends and everyone that is involved

Maybe we should separate and spend some time alone
And this is something that I'm thinking while I'm driving home
I take it one day at a time so I don't lose myself
And when I feel like dying, turning up this music helps
You're the one no matter what, you would accept my flaws
I had to slow it down and really put my life on pause
I don't understand exactly what I'm supposed to do
I just keep living my life until I'm over you
With all these barricades, I need a different route to take
My heart is filled with love and truly, it's about to break
From all the trauma and abandonment, I'm numb inside
I can face it now but usually, I'd run and hide
We dealt with all the stuff that neither one of us deserve
Communication's nonexistent, just these hateful words
You and I together, arguing, we always fight
We made it through this living hell and all the darkest nights
I would carry you until the day my shoulder snaps
'Cause when I feel like jumping, you're the one that holds me back
I'm tryna do things to get over you but nothing works
I thought it'd fix me in the end, it only made it worse
I should go but for a moment, I will sit and stay
All my problems when I'm with you seem to drift away
I try my hardest just to prove to you that I'm okay
But I am dying on the inside almost every day

I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore
I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore

Don't get it confused, you're not leaving me, I'm leaving you
Regardless of how difficult this is, yeah I'ma see it through
And I don't wanna leave but there is nothing left to say
'Cause this is life or death with all these prices that I've paid
Nothing will make me stay so don't you waste another breath
Now these limitless horizons are replacing my regrets
You can't hate me, I'm just trying to survive
I'm holding onto hope until my liberty arrives
These nightmares are over so now we'll finally sleep
And once I'm out the door, it's truly vital we don't speak
I'm ready for the loss and dealing with the grief
Just knowing that you're happy, that would help me feel complete
At first, we were perfect, a match made in heaven
I was picturing something flawless but that fantasy has ended
I'm not a victim as I sit and watch me bleed
I allowed your wreckage to take everything from me
You were there to catch my tears every time I would sob, look
I placed you higher than everyone, you were God
I'd forget about all the damage that you have caused
Every time I held you tightly inside of both of my arms
We have to separate before I soon explode
I know that we're a team but I should do this on my own
My bags are in the trunk as I'm driving this lonely road
Till you're just a distant memory, I have to let you go

I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore
I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore

I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore
I am (I am)
I am on the right track (I am on the right track)
And I don't wanna go back (I don't wanna go back)
To where I was before (where I was)
'Cause it's something that I can't ignore