Last Cell

(album: I Won't Survive - 2021)

To my daughter I'll leave behind
I can't stop what's metastasized
You're the light in my decline
You're the one thing I've done right

All my days have become numbered
And I have become numb to it

Spite flooded veins
Paranoid the pulse has lost me
My purpose has become nil
My cells multiply against my will

I'm sorry I won't be there
For your first steps, when you're falling
'Til you walk down the aisle
Standing tall in a white dress
I know life isn't fair
When it's time and heaven's calling
We leave love behind
You were my reason to fight

My reason to fight

If this body is a temple
Then my walls were built on sand
There's cracks in all my windows
The foundation is condemned
But it's weathered many storms
I can't take one more

I'm sorry I won't be there
For your first steps, when you're falling
'Til you walk down the aisle
Standing tall in a white dress
I know life isn't fair
When it's time and heaven's calling
We leave love behind
You were my reason to fight

I never thought this would all end at 29
There's a conflict in my soul; a system failure of my life
No, I'll never get enough and you should never watch me die
But that's just how this one goes. Think of me, think of me and close your eyes

Think of me and close your eyes
Think of me and close your eyes
Think of me and close your eyes
Think of me and close your eyes
Think of me and close your eyes

I'm sorry for the things I couldn't help:
For all the times you'll walk through hell
For the cancer tearing my spirit out
When your world comes crashing down
I'm sorry for this fleeting farewell
Despite all the fear I felt
I loved you down to every last cell
Don't let your light run into the shadows