Why Am I Alive?

(album: Class Of Cardinal Sin - 2021)

Will I last long when I'm 80
Putting time in on my own
Counting down the days
Is that why we have kids?

For purpose in old age
It's selfish in a way, bringing life into this world

This ever spinning rock
That's bursting into flames
And all we do is blame
The people that we've learned to hate

But hate can be benign
Essential I suppose
It's harder to define

It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that fuck me up

Thoughts like why am I alive
I'm an echo through a hall
Just a product of defect
My parents split up after all

And I'm trying not to think, these thoughts don't help my case
Just feels like something's wrong
And it's eating at my brain

It's getting quite severe
Consuming everything
It's why I cannot sleep

It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that keep me up
It's thoughts like this that fuck me up

I know the fix is clear and I'm able
But I'm not sure I want to be fixed at all
It so clearly fills and defines me now