I Hardly Know How To Be Myself

(album: Life Is Messy - 1992)

Go out and hear a band at some club downtown
Walk home in the rain and let it soak me down
Smile and shuffle past all the faces at the door
I hardly know how to be myself anymore

I wonder where you are, do I exist for you
That pain that never quits, ever gets you too
I think about my life and what it's headed for
I hardly know how to be myself anymore

I know how to chase the night away
Show no feelings by the light of the day
I know how to keep it all intact
Tears may fall but there's no holding back

Time runs by me like a river cold
It sends a shiver way down in my soul
I see my past just like a mask I wore
I hardly know how to be myself anymore

I know how to face the night alone
And keep my distance on the telephone
I know how to get my crying done
Tears may fall, but I don't show no one

I go out and hear a band at some club on down the street
I shake the hands of all the people that I meet
I hope they find just what they're looking for
I hardly know how to be myself anymore

I hardly know how to be myself anymore

I hardly know how to be myself