Dear Dad

(album: Dirty Pretty Things - 2019)

Where do I start?
I'll start by saving I love you
Even after my heart keeps taking a beating from you
I never meant to make you
I never meant to make you mad

Where does it end?
I'm tired of carrying this baggage
Ever since we were kids
We just accepted the madness

I never meant to make you
I never meant to make you sad

So tell me you need me
Tell me it's not easy
To carry all the burdens from the past
I wanna believe it
That you really mean it
That's all I ever wanted from you, dad

When I was younger
That's when I needed you most, I
Tried to hold on but got used to watching you go
You never meant to break me
You never meant to break my heart

Now that I'm older
I can see through the chaos
Angel over my shoulder making sure I don't stay lost
I'm trying to be somebody
Someone who is happy and free

So tell me you need me
Tell me it's not easy
To carry all the burdens from the past
I want to believe it
That you really mean it
That's all I ever wanted from you, dad

I got feelings and anger and rage
Feels like I've been stuck in a cage
Got all these emotions if you cut me open
You'll see that I'm so much like you
I hate it when we're all divided
And I hate that it's always one sided
I hate every second I've been in this mess
And I hate, I hate that I'll never hate you

So tell me you need me
Tell me it's not easy
To carry all the burdens from the past
I want to believe it
That you really mean it
That's all I ever wanted from you, dad

It's all I ever wanted
It's all I ever wanted
It's all I, it's all I, it's all I
It's all I ever wanted
It's all I ever wanted
It's all I, it's all I, it's all I

That's all I ever wanted from you, dad